I wanted to write this post last Thursday but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I stopped teaching my cycle class last week. I’ve heard the stories of people teaching until their 8th month or teaching right up until the end. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t stay in that long.
The truth: I could have kept teaching my cycle class, but I chose to leave for one reason. Yes everyone knows that I’m pregnant and is very understanding about it all. As time progressed, I knew I couldn’t keep up the way I once did. Yes, there are ways to modify and work around things. I just couldn’t ask people to do things in class that I couldn’t do myself. Oh, and it was quite uncomfortable to sit on the bike sometimes.
I just don’t think I was providing an experience that would motivate and push people to achieve their best. Getting up for a 5am class is no joke which takes a lot of commitment. I want to make sure everyone is getting the best out of their workout. By continuing to teach, I feel like I may have been taking away from the experience. Even though I wanted to keep teaching, it may have been a little selfish for me to continue on.
There would be times after class that people would ask me if I was ok or if I should still be teaching. And I know these people are just looking out for me because they have become my friends after all of these years. But it just made me feel a little uncomfortable thinking these people may have been worrying about me while they should have been worried about their workout.
This morning was the first morning that I didn’t wake up to teach my class and it was a little heavy on my heart. I still woke up at the same time and wanted so badly to get out of bed to go. Which is another point, teaching at 5am is going to get trickier as time goes on. I’m already having trouble sleeping so I can’t imagine what’s going to happen over the next few weeks.
This doesn’t mean I’ve given up on being active; this just means I’ll need a little bit more motivation to actually get going. Last week I met my goals of working out 5 days. It felt good to keep actually meet my goal. Now two of my days of having to workout are off the table. But I know I’ll be able to keep it up for as long as I can. I’m just happy to be moving.