Losing the weight has been one of the biggest accomplishments in life. Everything seems so attainable and there is nothing I feel like I can’t do. I’m opening up more to people which means I’m making new friends. I’m trying new things, so I am developing new interests. Most importantly, I’m taking risks that I never would have taken before when I was larger. It’s amazing just how different I am from before. Losing the weight was just not a physical change, it was a mental and emotional change also.
People look up to me as this great inspiring force which is definitely something new for me. Willie and I never asked to be in the spotlight or be a weight loss guru or serve as inspiration to anyone. It just happened one day. Losing the weight was just something that we did and yes it was a big deal, but at the same time it’s not a big deal to us. Sometimes it’s easy to forget that people sometimes need inspiration for motivation AND that people may not attack the weight loss journey with as much vigor as we did.
It is a whole new world. Sometimes I look in the mirror and don’t even recognize myself. It’s still very strange to hear people say, “You are so tiny!” In my head, I’m not tiny. And there are moments when i look at my husband and just say to myself, “he’s changed so much.” I don’t really know how clothes are supposed to fit. I don’t really know what standing with your feet shoulder width apart instantly. I don’t know really what to do with my body because I feel like I’m having an out of body experience almost every minute of the day. But these are all things that I don’t mind, it’s just that I’m not use to it yet!
Losing the weight has opened up a whole new world for me and I will take every opportunity and chance that weight loss has given me. And I promise to take a little extra time to talk to those who need inspiring. It’s a little weird to talk about myself that much, but if people want to hear the story I will be more than happy to share. You never know when your words will make that big difference in someone else’s life, right?
I was never a person to have attention just on me and now I feel like everyone is looking at me. I sometimes feel like people are watching my every move to see exactly what I’m doing so they could do it too. It’s probably all in my head, but I do feel like I’m on display. But every day that passes, I’m learning new things and growing into my new self. It’s just an adjustment. It took me years to put the weight on and took me only a little bit over a year to lose it…I’m not going to feel the same after all that. It’s a learning curve, just like everything else new in life.
Everything is new again and I’m learning new things everyday to help me find my place in this world. That the thing about weight loss, it’s a constant change. You have to be patient with the process and having that patience changes you and makes you a better person. Throughout the process I changed so much and I’m still re-discovering who I am as a person. All I know is that I’m not the same person inside or out which makes this one of the most rewarding experiences of my life.