Happy Monday! We got in from St. Louis late last night. It was a good weekend and I’ll recap it later in another post. This post isn’t for that that. Traveling to St. Louis with Willie was kind of an eye opening experience for me. Or maybe just a huge surge of energy into my system.
I’ve been floundering through life for the past couple of months. I really thought it had only been a few weeks but if I look back on big picture, this moment has been coming for a long time. I’ve felt like I’ve been stuck on a path that isn’t leading to a path of happiness. With the weight loss, I feel like I was given a second chance to really love life. I feel like I can do anything if I try hard enough. I just don’t feel like I’ve been trying. I’m not a risk taker. I’m a rule follower. I do what I’m supposed to do and that’s that.
I’ve been on a quest to really find my happiness and to find myself. I’ve been living my life doing the things that truly make me happy with the people who make me the happiest!
I felt like for so long I was unhappy with life, relationships, my weight, my job that I needed to be happy ALL the time. The sad reality is: no one is happy all the time. The more times I spent trying to make myself the best and happiest version of myself, the more I failed. It was like I was trying to prove something instead of just being happy.
This weekend as I walked the St. Louis streets with my husband, I knew exactly what my happiness is in life. Yesterday, sitting at a table enjoying a snack with Willie as we plotted out life, I knew my happiness would be achievable. I knew would find our happiness together.
Willie is my best friend. This is nothing new. But I know that I am truly blessed to have married my best friend because we sat at a table plotting out life and happiness and he didn’t even blink an eye thinking about how crazy the plans we were setting in stone. Willie said, “It’s time to explore the off beaten path.” In that moment, everything came into perspective because he got it and there was no explanation needed.
The explanation of it all sometimes leads to more discomfort.
I’m getting to the point now, I promise. My happiness lies with pushing myself past what I thought could ever be done. It’s personal. You may not understand it. It may not appeal to you. But 4 years ago, I was 338 pounds and growing and I never thought I would travel, walk the streets of a city without fatigue or even want to run. It’s time for me to step out of my box and live.
I’ve decided I am going to try to join the 50 states marathon club. Willie and I are happy to explore and see new things. We definitely happiest when we are doing these types of things. And we all know that I LOVE to run so I will attempt the 50 states marathon club and travel our beautiful country with my husband (most of the time)!
Travel and running are a passion. I can’t explain it but it’s something I think about ALL the time. It’s probably not normal. My free time is spent looking through travel guides and finding new places to visit…and then immediately looking up to see if they have a race for me to run and some great local culture for Willie. Most people won’t identify with it and I know people won’t understand it. At the end of the day, it’s not for you really to understand, but I would appreciate you taking the journey with me. I want to talk to different people, I want to hear their stories and I want us to share ours. I need to get out and live life!
This is my goal. This is going to make me happy.
If you really stop to think about it, what is the one thing in life that will make you truly happy?
