I wish I could tell you how many times I’ve sat down to write a blog post and then nothing came out. At this point, it’s too many to count. I love this blog and I love helping people with my words but sometimes it’s hard to write here. The struggle is real.
Do you care about what I eat on the regular? I feel like I’m pretty boring and eat the same things. Do you care what is in my fridge? Do you care that I love to run? Do you really want to know that I got up to teach my class, again? To me, my life is mundane and boring. I’m organized down to the minute. I plan way in advance and my let loose time is usually on the weekends. Sometimes it’s just a struggle to keep the audience engaged and interested. It’s a challenge I’m willing to accept though because I want to help, inspire and motivate you to be the best version of yourself. The struggle is real.
I once was obese, but I lost it and now I’m just living a normal life. I’m in maintenance mode and sometimes this is the hardest place to be. There’s always the constant fear of gaining the weight back. Some weight gain is normal but massive weight gain, not so much. That is why I feel so horrible that Willie is going through his struggle right now but he’s handling it very well. Keeping the weight off is harder than losing it in the first place. The struggle is real.
I feel like I must be everything to everyone. I feel like that is what people expect out of me. I’m a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a boss, a running buddy, a caretaker, a driver…and it’s hard to keep up. I feel like I’m getting lost in the shuffle, that I may not be paying as much attention to myself as I should. By the time I reach the end of the day, I’m used up which doesn’t leave much time for me. I know I should make more time for myself (more than the time that I spend hitting the roads to run, which I haven’t been able to do much of lately) and take care of myself. I take care of everyone else, so I should do the same for me. The struggle is real.
Let’s not be clouded by these words, I am the happiest I’ve ever been and loving the life I have created for myself. Right now is just one of those moments where it’s busy and complicated and I’m trying to figure things out. The struggle is real but that doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy the challenge. It’s just that sometimes when you’re moving at a million miles a minute there isn’t much time to think. Everything kind of goes on autopilot and I need to just take the time to breathe. I’m on a mission to become more efficient during the day because I do waste a lot of time. I’m taking the time to get a little bit more organized in my daily life because I waste a lot of time looking for things that should have been put up but weren’t…or didn’t have a home at all.
2016 is the year Willie and I are going to make big changes. We are going to take giant leaps of faith and hopefully those things will take us into to flight. It’s scary and it’s real. Yes, the struggle is real but in the end we must learn to trust ourselves and keep moving. Never stop moving because then you’re in the same place and the purpose of life is to keep growing everyday.