To put this into words is hard because I have been extremely focused lately.  I’m the person you come to for motivation and inspiration to tackle your dreams and lately I’ve just been focused on chasing my own stuff.  It’s been hard for me to put it into words to post here on the blog.

I’m still here.  If you follow me on Instagram, you know I’ve still been around.

The goals I’ve set for myself aren’t visual goals.  That’s why I haven’t had much to post on Instagram (besides in my stories).  The goals I set are kind of personal and hard to put into words.  It’s hard to explain something completely personal to others because the FULL understanding just won’t be there.

A couple of weeks ago I looked in the mirror and didn’t like what I saw. I lost all of my muscle when I was pregnant and I knew I needed to start building that back. I just knew I needed to put the steps into motion to make the change.

The goals I have set for myself are to keep on a schedule.  I know if I don’t get up in the morning to get my workout in, I probably will struggle with trying to get it in during the day.  The past two weeks I’ve gotten up every morning to do my workouts.  I’ve been focusing on getting my strength training done and getting my 10,000 steps by the end of the day.

I’ve been doing my walk/runs in the evening with the baby. It’s been a nice way to put a stamp on the end of the day. I have definitely felt accomplished which has given me a push to continue on the path.

The goals I’ve set is to rebuild my mental toughness because I went through a hard time.  At some point, I started to discredit myself and question my worth to the world. I started to isolate myself and I took a few steps backward.  I’ve been working on building my mental strength by doing some type of daily devotional.  It’s amazing how things started to change when I started my daily devotionals.  That really just tells me your attitude can make a big difference in how you go about things in life.

I’ve been energized, even when I’ve been tired.  Four A.M. comes early and there are a lot of things that happen in a day, but I’ve been focused on accomplishing my goals.

I am still here.

And now that I’m writing this, I realize it wasn’t so hard to write.  When I am honest and not trying to “write to impress” things do come a little easier.